Have you ever felt that you have done everything right while it all crumbled into pieces? That’s how I felt in 2008. I worked hard and I tried to treat everybody fair. Everything worked in my favour. I achieved so much that people I grew up with can only dream about. I am not saying that I’m exceptional but I achieved more than I’ve ever thought is realistic. I even had more set backs than normal but I always was able to pick myself up and achieve even more than before. Everything was a dream, it just worked.
Then, weird things started happening. Suddenly, I was not good enough for some people, they criticised me a lot and some of them hated me so much that it destroyed not only my hard work but also my motivation. I started questioning what is it that I did wrong, how come I wasn’t able to defend myself or prevent it. I did not want to pick myself up again because I felt that my achievements could be taken away anytime just because I don’t know how to avoid it. I needed to understand what is going on before I could safely put a lot of effort into my next venture and keep it going. Of course, I can always be as nasty as these people but that’s not my way of doing things. There has to be a way how to deal with nastiness without being nasty.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not perfect, I did get upset when people didn’t make sense. And I did give these people good cards to play with. But how not to get upset about nonsense?
At that time, I was a loser as some people loved to call my situation. I did believe that I could pick myself up and get out of that mess as I did before but I wasn’t sure whether I really wanted to at that moment. Why should I put myself through the tough times and lose it again? Next time, I wanted to do it right. I wanted to figure out how to avoid the same struggles before I gave it another go.
So here you have it. Here are the thoughts of someone who had everything she wanted, lost it all because of people’s hatred and how she went about fixing it.
